Pain How I loath you Depression How I curse you Anxiety How dare you Get the fuck out of my head Go fuck up a cockroaches day Motherfuckers I don’t have time for you I’m done with the dread I’m just a wondering soul Trying to find the balance Pain, depression, and anxiety What gives … More Pain

Dear pro-lifer…

Try walking your talk please, I’m sick and tired of the photo-shopped Christianity the evangelicals produce. Can you (conservative evangelicals) stop and take a second to evaluate your self before you come upon the LGBTQ community, blacks, and all other minorities like a shotgun to a knife fight? Will you at least show a little … More Dear pro-lifer…

Favorite Album

Evil Empire is the second album from the Rage Against the Machine catalog dropping on April 16th, 1996 and got its name from the Ronald Reagan era in reference to the Soviet Union.  Evil Empire got to number one on Billboard top 200 and by 2000 it was already certified platinum 3x. The genre is rap metal … More Favorite Album

Favorite Artist

Zack Dela Rocha from “Rage Against the Machine” was born on January 12th, 1970 and wrote most of the lyrics for “RATM.” He was the lead vocalist and very vital to “RATM” as he is a strong voice against the injustices to humans. His rage in the lyrics he writes is beautiful but also very … More Favorite Artist

Favorite Drink

Coffee was found more like stumbled upon in the 15th century in Yemen and would be brewed and roasted similar to how it is today but they didn’t have a Keurig so it wasn’t quick like today. They had to wait for the fire to get hot and put the pot on and wait for the beans … More Favorite Drink

Favorite Food

Crawfish that sweet cajun mudbug that tastes so good and sends your taste buds into outer space. Well, for me anyway. Crawfish dwell on the bottom of swamps, creeks, and streams.  These bottom dwellers look like mini lobsters but they taste better and are a bit easier to eat. The first time I ever ate them … More Favorite Food

Lighten the mood

The last few posts have been heavy because I am under some pretty heavy pressure right now as you can probably tell. So, I wanted to share a list of upcoming posts I’ll be doing as life allows them to happen. Music post: My favorite album of all time and why. Dear pro-life post: In a respectful way … More Lighten the mood

Gender Dysphoria

TW: Suicide attempts, cutting, self-hatred, cussing, and intense depression. I have not attempted suicide any time recently and I do not plan on it! PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION. . . . . I have hated the way my body looks since I was 8 and the amount of pain I felt whenever my picture would … More Gender Dysphoria

We all…

Easy does it is what I say To my beautiful daughter Who is about to make a dangerous choice That stove is hot son When my son is about to hurt himself I say easy does it We all got hurts We all have been burned We all have made bad Choices We all got … More We all…

Stockholm Syndrome

Growing up in a Conservative Evangelical Context I would often feel trapped and secluded from the world around me. My parents would say they loved me and wanted the best for my life but would turn around and verbally abuse my siblings and I. Especially my dad, who still too this day is a heavy … More Stockholm Syndrome


One of my many passions is for people to be allowed to live in truth and be able to be themselves. I had been caged up my entire life until just recently and I know there are many others just like me who are in situations where they just can’t get out. It hurts my friends but … More Love

Limerick: Untitled

I’m on the brink I feel like I’m about to sink Life is throwing me in all directions There are just no medications when is there going to be a unkink Jobs, family, parents, friends, and the unknowing are all the things pulling me and throwing me in all directions. Right now I don’t feel like I … More Limerick: Untitled


A weakness is a hell of a lot easier for me to point out in myself than a strength because of how intensely I’ve hated myself my whole life. There was a time not too long ago I think it may have been the last year I was apart of Ywam where day in and … More Weaknesses