Tired, angry, sad, want to be done

It’s right there under your nose but you are deciding to leave this with a big glob of mess still all over your face. You see it but you ignore it because your religion tells you this life is black and white. This religion tells you that some magical thing is going to happen at the end of the world. You strive for the end without looking at the past or present. You are not present you are allowing your tunnel vision to cloud reality, meaning you are missing what is happening right in front of you. Waiting on the edge of your seat for this world to blow up instead of loving your Trans kids. Loving your disabled kids. Loving kids. Gross.

What happened in the past? Well, let’s see here, there has been nuclear bombs, several wars fighting against slavery, a Holocaust, immegrents being forced into cages, and a whole lot of bigotry against my community the lgbtqia community. Looking at the past and looking at the present is fucking scary. So many things are lining up and we are allowing history to repeat. Wherent we supposed to change history since it does like to repeat itself? Isn’t that what you told me growing up? You are liers and thieves of joy you are not actually pro life you are pro fetus. What happens if that fetus is Trans what the fuck you gonna do?

Looking at the future more than the present is dangerous and so many boomers are keeping the mess on their faces and ignoring change. You wanted things to change but you had conditions on what we could change. Listening to Franklin Gram is like listening to nails on a chalk board Holy shit your evangelicalism is not working step down, shut up, and learn how to love change because bitch change is happening.

You know, I know I rant a bit but God Damn it where else and what else am I gonna do other than write right now? I have an entire life time of trauma starting at the age of 2. I could make a power point that’s how much I remember…

I’m gonna leave you with this, one time I was dragged across the carpet from my room up a two stair case through a tiled kitchen and forced into the bathroom where I was to get spanked by the paddle 3 times if I don’t fight 4 if I did.. I was 11 then 12 and at 13 the abuse of getting hit because i made a mistake for trying to fucking learn… stopped.

My life seemed like a fucking joke because I was getting hit, sure he gave reason but the reason was for something he could of just talked me down on…

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sashaadele1

My name is Sasha Adele Braden, a transgender woman, who is queer and living in freedom. I knew I was transgender at the age of five because my development just seemed off so I had an inclination something was very wrong. I was locked away because of shame and I decided that I was going to take my truth to the grave and never open up to anyone because I was full of fear. That all changed February 14, 2018, when it all came out. I’m free. I’m alive. I’m learning that life isn’t just eating, sleeping, having sex, and going to the bathroom but it is so much more! Learning that has been a blast! I am also co-managing a grassroots organization called, “REFLECT” and it is all about trans and nonbinary expression through community while being able to completely lean on allies. I am super stoked to be doing this and being a safe place for the queer community of Austin, TX. Look up my Facebook page “REFLECT” for more details. With all of that said, welcome to my life. I welcome all types of people and welcome all types of dialogue. So, drop a comment or two on a post every once In a while​ this blog is mainly just a way to let go of trauma from my past. Expressing it has helped me overcome things I thought I was never going to be able to overcome and I’m living in freedom for the first time in my life.

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