I’m a mess

Weed is not a gateway drug.

Alcohol is not a gateway drug.

Nicotine is not a gateway drug.

Caffeine is not a gateway drug.

Trauma is a gateway, abstinence of parents is a gateway, and child is a gateway. Substances are not the cause of the downfall in a mental illness. The rejection and pain are the doors in which so many of us where forced to go through. I wake up every fucking day wondering how the fuck I am still here?

Quit blaming substance and hold the parents accountable for not being there, being abusive when they were around, and extremely passive aggressive… None of us and I mean NON of us chose to be born under this dying sun we where all forced out and expected to just understand how everything works. How the fuck am I supposed understand 10,000’s different forms of Christianity? Or even pick the one closest to my views? Life is fucking hard and being traumatized and rejected is how most of my generation grew up.

Substance helps me make it through my days so don’t blame it on being the gateway when the fucks who want to make this shit impossible to get are the very ones that caused trauma and rejection, creating the gateway.

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My name is Sasha Adele Braden, a transgender woman, who is queer and living in freedom. I knew I was transgender at the age of five because my development just seemed off so I had an inclination something was very wrong. I was locked away because of shame and I decided that I was going to take my truth to the grave and never open up to anyone because I was full of fear. That all changed February 14, 2018, when it all came out. I’m free. I’m alive. I’m learning that life isn’t just eating, sleeping, having sex, and going to the bathroom but it is so much more! Learning that has been a blast! I am also co-managing a grassroots organization called, “REFLECT” and it is all about trans and nonbinary expression through community while being able to completely lean on allies. I am super stoked to be doing this and being a safe place for the queer community of Austin, TX. Look up my Facebook page “REFLECT” for more details. With all of that said, welcome to my life. I welcome all types of people and welcome all types of dialogue. So, drop a comment or two on a post every once In a while​ this blog is mainly just a way to let go of trauma from my past. Expressing it has helped me overcome things I thought I was never going to be able to overcome and I’m living in freedom for the first time in my life.

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