Mother-Fucking Angry

If you are reading this get ready for real honest and raw shit. I’m not sorry I speak truth about the fucking people that fucked me over and caused trauma that was not necessary. They caused trauma by holding my truth back and they caused trauma by not letting me freely express. They caused trauma because Jesus is a fucking lie and they lie about it every fucking day. They caused trauma because I put trust in them and believed them and their hate. They caused trauma because I was never fucking good enough. They caused trauma because Christians are full of contridictions.

I feel like I can’t anymore. Day in and day out it’s a fucking struggle to even find the time to figure the next thing out. I can’t anymore for 20+ years I said I could which was a bull faced fucking lie.. I cant anymore I don’t want too anymore.

I’m tired…

“You can be whoever and do what ever you want when you grow up and get more tools on your tool belt, you have so much potential.” – Christian leaders

(I come out as a trans woman)

“Oh no not that anything but that.”

“I cant give you a reason just no not that.”

When a trans person is rejected their mind feels eternally fucked and out of place in society, we feel like we are no good and will not amount to the value a cis person has.

I’m tired…

But don’t forget you can say this about any minority. The difference is me being trans i can “shut that off” for as long as I need to feel safe whereas a black person, PoC, and a person with a disability can’t just “shut it off.” The color of their skin from the moment they are born puts them in danger and if society figures out you can’t move, read, write, talk, or require help to get out of bed you get put on a list that will only help the bare minimum, if at all.

IT SHOULD NOT BE LIKE THIS! Basic human right should not be this fucking hard to achieve.

Social constructs and putting people in a box is bull shit, stop.

I’m tired and so are the rest of the amazing people struggling just to make it into the next minute.

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sashaadele1

My name is Sasha Adele Braden, a transgender woman, who is queer and living in freedom. I knew I was transgender at the age of five because my development just seemed off so I had an inclination something was very wrong. I was locked away because of shame and I decided that I was going to take my truth to the grave and never open up to anyone because I was full of fear. That all changed February 14, 2018, when it all came out. I’m free. I’m alive. I’m learning that life isn’t just eating, sleeping, having sex, and going to the bathroom but it is so much more! Learning that has been a blast! I am also co-managing a grassroots organization called, “REFLECT” and it is all about trans and nonbinary expression through community while being able to completely lean on allies. I am super stoked to be doing this and being a safe place for the queer community of Austin, TX. Look up my Facebook page “REFLECT” for more details. With all of that said, welcome to my life. I welcome all types of people and welcome all types of dialogue. So, drop a comment or two on a post every once In a while​ this blog is mainly just a way to let go of trauma from my past. Expressing it has helped me overcome things I thought I was never going to be able to overcome and I’m living in freedom for the first time in my life.

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