I really wish folks would stop assuming and just ask me. Ask me why and I’ll answer…
I have conflict in my head all the time from growing up in a cult and so when something false gets said my head starts spinning out of control. I know im fucked up and I know there has to be a change but I can’t change if you don’t ask.
I’ve had very dark thoughts lately and though I may show I am ok I am not. I’m very far from OK. My head is not in a good place and I don’t know how the fuck to get out of this place.
This month has been the darkest month of my entire life and the fake faces are exhausting the bull shit persona of being “OK” is exhausting.