RaW

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// Depression:

Life seems to just be dark because the more I think about the past the more confusion and anger I feel for things I did to so many people in the cult that is @ywam_org .

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// Anxiety:

Things that seem so small to others are the biggest triggers for me and I fucking hate it. I can’t deal with Christian language or even secular shows that bring up God because of how much nasty shit is connected to that whole shit storm. .

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// Bipolar:

I will go from one mood to another quicker than you can say, “go” I just have several moods and I am longing for them to be put under control because they are all fucking exhausting. .

. // Deconstructing:

Trying to cut out all the religious bull shit is just too exhausting most of the time. I learned and I was taught so much bull shit growing up that having to learn what loving people actually looks like has been hard and extremely painful. I need time to be able to breath but I just have no time at all. .

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// Grief:

Life is Austin, TX has been hard being away from my kids and not watching them grow and learn new things daily has been really taxing. Everyday I beat myself up because I chose ywam instead of coming out, I chose getting married instead of coming out, I fucking chose Texas instead of Colorado like a fucking idiot. Grief sucks life is fucking hard and here I am.

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sashaadele1

My name is Sasha Adele Braden, a transgender woman, who is queer and living in freedom. I knew I was transgender at the age of five because my development just seemed off so I had an inclination something was very wrong. I was locked away because of shame and I decided that I was going to take my truth to the grave and never open up to anyone because I was full of fear. That all changed February 14, 2018, when it all came out. I’m free. I’m alive. I’m learning that life isn’t just eating, sleeping, having sex, and going to the bathroom but it is so much more! Learning that has been a blast! I am also co-managing a grassroots organization called, “REFLECT” and it is all about trans and nonbinary expression through community while being able to completely lean on allies. I am super stoked to be doing this and being a safe place for the queer community of Austin, TX. Look up my Facebook page “REFLECT” for more details. With all of that said, welcome to my life. I welcome all types of people and welcome all types of dialogue. So, drop a comment or two on a post every once In a while​ this blog is mainly just a way to let go of trauma from my past. Expressing it has helped me overcome things I thought I was never going to be able to overcome and I’m living in freedom for the first time in my life.

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