2019 has been teaching me that I am a very go with he flow type of human that will give everything into the thing I’m in. My entire life I have been able to adapt quickly because I’ve had too. I’ve just had to overcome. Having a partner who is absolutely perfect and willing to walk with me through my mental illnesses is so huge because I feel like not a lot of people could do that.
I am on 3 antidepressants and I still get panic attacks but I am way better than I wasast year or even years prior because I am living truth and for the first time I can say I am genuinely happy. Life makes sense for the first time. Im not bull shitting my way through days wondering if a fucking mower is going to break down or one of the leaders is going to tell me to have a quiet time because I am smoking. I am living my life my truth and I am thankful.
Also, having a friend/sister with cerebral palsy who I get the privilege of taking care of most of the time is and has been so healing. Since last April the amount of times I’ve thought about suicide is a lot but she has kept me alive and moving forward. Even if we didn’t take steps one day we can always remain nutrurel and look back to say we made it. She is incredible and I have so much I want to say about being an attendent but I’m waiting so be on the look out.
At the end of 2018 I said I aint taking no shit from anything and that has been pretty much the case. Life has been non stop but fuller than ever and I am so stoked to see where this year goes. Be on the look out for REFLECT stuff as we plan on having a fashion runway show sometime in March. Also more photos I have picked up a hobby of editing photos and I’ve fallen I love.