I am learning more and more each day that living out your truth is hard as fuck but, worth it. With the amount of resistance trans folks face at any given moment of our lives living out this truth is that much more powerful. It is a protest against a world that is so caught up in lies that obviously it is going to give us the resistance. Obviously, we are going to want to shell up. Obviously, we are going to be full of anxiety and depression all because living truthfully is wrong by modern society nowadays. But, stepping into it with confidence is honestly one of the most powerful things you can ever do not only for you but also those who are struggling even to just come out of the closet. Being LGBTQIA+ is a great act of resistance in modern society and when folks can tap into their truthfully and genuinely things will change. More people will be set free. It’s not all about thoughts and prayers we got to be proactive in every day to fight for the truth because living in a world full of truth is so much more freeing and right than having to live a fucking lie.
Backing up a little bit when I first moved to Austin, Tx my life felt like mashed potatoes because it all just happened so quick and I honestly hated it to the core of my being. I couldn’t stand any of it from having to sleep on the ground to doing uber eats deliveries daily just to be able to survive it was painful. Then going from that to a house of queers that took me in, made me family, and became one of the biggest support systems of my life things slowly started to get better. I got a job that was consistent that I didn’t have to drive all over the city for and had somewhat of a routine finally about 4 months after moving to Austin. I still felt isolated and confused as fuck. Life just made no sense and I was an extreme depressed case. In September I got put on anti-depressants and about a month later was feeling a bit better. The anti-depressants didn’t help once Trump said he wanted to get rid of trans people all together… From that moment I had a 3-week long panic attack that led me to only being able to sleep maybe 45 mins a night and getting extremely sick. Those three weeks where hell.
Around the end of the 3rd week, I came up with this idea to have a photoshoot for trans and enby folks. As a kind of like a form of resistance and protest against the so-called followers of Christ and the pro-life crowd that hate trans folks so much. After my roommate and I talked about it we had a photo shoot for me to kind of announce this idea to see who would come or even be interested. What happened was amazing… We got connected to one group than another group and so on to the point, we will be having a PROFESSIONAL photoshoot/DJ party at out house December 1st, 2018… I could not be more happy about this. This has helped the leaf flip in a very rewarding and refreshing way. For the first time a few weeks ago I feel like I could genuinely breathe for the first time in my life and have never been happier or felt freer.
The name of our group is REFLECT. I had a friend help me come up with the name then the ideas just went wild. REFLECT is an acronym and is the umbrella for everything we are wanting to accomplish, this is so fantastic.
(R)epresentation: The action of speaking or acting on behalf of someone or the state of being so represented.
(E)xpression: The process of making known one’s thoughts or feelings.
(F)reedom: The power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hinderance or restraint.
(L)ove: An intense feeling of deep expression.
(E)nby:Not relating to, composing of, or involving just two things. A genderless blob of beautiful human.
(C)ommunity: A group of people with different personalities striving for the same goal.
(T)rans: Denoting or relating to a person whose sense of personal identity and gender does not correspond with their birth sex.