When you find yourself making progress and the baby steps you have taken to get to where you are going, you realize baby steps add up quick. The very beginning of the most recent change you are in is always the hardest to work through/figure out. As you know my anxiety and depression took over … More Baby steps add up
Have you ever been so sad because another person struggles to get around? Have you ever been so depressed the only thought in your mind was to drive off a cliff? Have you ever been so excited about plants that you obsessed about them in the back of your mind the rest of the day? … More Life, What a Funny Thing
Tw: cussing, suicidal thoughts, depression • • • • • • • I’m not going to fucking lie today has been one of the hardest fucking days in my life. I came up to Tyler, TX to visit and grab the rest of my stuff and a few other things and I have been a … More Heartbreak and feels of the day
To say, “get right with God” Is nothing short of odd To say, “Gods love is unconditional” Is a very suspicional I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THE CHRISTIANS FACADE
Christians are really good at making you feel like shit. The more and more I get text messages from my old friends I feel like they are stabbing me in the back. It’s like being transgender is some joke and living out your true identity is completely false. Christianity is really good at making you … More So long, and Thanks for all the Fish
Life is good and I have a lot to be happy about. It is so damn nice being allowed to be genuinely happy. I’m happy I have great friends I’m happy I am living in Austin, Tx I’m happy I’ll get to see my kids soon I’m happy I have great jobs I’m happy I know … More 🙂
I started out in Austin, Tx with my vinyl records and clothes not knowing what it was going to look like or even feel like. As a lot of you know I came down here to transition and make friends in the queer community which has been AMAZING! The amazing couple I have been with … More Finding A Routine
Where to begin… It has been a wild week full of learning how to self-care for myself and learning my new jobs. The jobs are amazing, I have Uber down to a T and the only struggle I’m having is getting around the confusing city. It’s a lot of fun being able to listen to … More Little Something Something
My friends, it has been a wild few first days here in Austin, Tx. The night I pulled in my allergies were going bonkers and I was a sobbing mess. Most of the night I couldn’t stop thinking about how my kids were going to wake up and I wasn’t going to be there. I … More Goals are HAPPING
A little poem I wrote last year in the midst of my most intense anger. I was a very livid human last year and I am thankful this blog is an outlet. I have held a lot of these writings in for a long time so, being able to release them has been an excellent … More October 5th, 2017
January 1st, 2011 I came back to Tyler, TX to do my second installment into YWAM that would allow me to stay on staff. I showed up with everything I owned and began the lecture portion of the 5-month course. I remember the first morning like it was yesterday, the woman who I was showing … More YWAM Pt. 2
Just a few honest thoughts from tonight… It’s my last night in Tyler, Tx and I am having all kinds of mixed emotions. I am happy because my life is going to be authentic and full of opportunity I have only ever dreamed about. I’ll be living full time as Sasha and be able to express … More Emotional
My life has been one jump after another hoping that the dam would break and Sasha would be set free. I started jumping at 15 and I’ve written about my dad still being a hard-core drunk and my mom being passive aggressive. She just doesn’t stand up to him. When I was 15 I jumped … More No More Jumping
Moving out of the Bible Belt I’m not going to have to constantly feel like I melt I’m moving to the most affirming place in Texas I won’t have to deal with YWAM exes This is going to be the best I have ever felt
My YWAM experience is going to be split up into 4 parts, I was there for 7 years and I have so much to say. I was hurt, I was spiritually abused, and I was treated like a project from day one. Here are the first 5 months. The story starts with a text too … More YWAM Pt. 1
I have been attracted to men my whole like. I am not going to sugar-coat the fact that I have always wanted to be the “woman” in the bedroom and allow my man to let out his “manness.” I have never enjoyed having intercourse being the “man” it has never pleased me ever since I … More Honest/Truth
After I wrote the Hurt post I started looking at quotes on Pinterest and even though I am still very much full of pain these quotes are helping me finish the day strong. I hope these help someone else who might be going through a hard time and just need some encouragement.♥ “And from the chaos of … More Untitled
…Then the grief hit like a freight train going a million miles an hour hitting me right in the tear ducts… Nasty bawling my eyes out, snot dripping from my nasals, and extreme waves of anxiety. It all hit me with one blow after another I’m just going to be the child support parent and … More Hurt
A huge shout out to those people who affirm and can love me for who I am, you all are beautiful humans and I am full of hope for my life because of you. Thank you! The beauty and love that comes out of all of you is authentic, raw, and overwhelming. I can’t even … More Beauty Pt. 2
Inner beauty and how I am finding it. My entire life up till recently I hated looking at myself in the mirror and would just look to trim my beard. I then would move on with life being so disgusted with my body and how it did not match the inside at all. I hated having to … More Beauty Pt. 1
