Oh my gawd I forgot to write about my transition, in the middle of all the trump bullshit I have not filled anyone in on how my transition is going! I have been able to do a lot of research into supplements that will carry my hormone doses even further and I tell you what … More Transition progress
Tw: LOTS OF CUSSING, ANGER, BITTERNESS, CULT TALK . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Dear evangelicals word-wide, You have fucked up. You have missed the very thing that you say you are so good at. You have stabbed more people in the back than you realize. You … More Thoughts that needed to escape
When you look at these Trump-Concentration-Camps what do you see? Do you see a follow up of Adolf Hitlers Germany or do you see something different? Do you look at this as good for this nation or evil? Where do you see them going with this? What about the children and those little innocent human … More Untitled: Thoughts
Stuff I can’t/won’t hold in. Stuff I got to say. Where we are as a nation is so dark and cruel yet Christians are silent… I legit don’t feel good at all. . . . . . America, you are screwed up. America, you are now the most hated nation in the world. America, this … More Hey Church, Those crickets are loud…
What is one thing in your life you wish you could control fully? Living in a society run by cisgender heterosexual people there is nothing you can control being queer. At least that’s what I’m finding out. If you are a cisgender heterosexual person reading this and are my friend this is NOT describing my feels for … More Do Something
I’ve got several things that I need to take care of ASAP! Please help. My car got broken into last week and I was able to get a tiny loan to pay for my new phone and a new window but I own still and would like to get it paid ASAP. Anything helps thank … More In a serious need
When is the church going start loving Is it just going to be non-stop hating Or are they going to open up Let people experience the hope of a cheer up Give humans a meaning?
In a nation controlled by -Evangelical Christians- and a man who is wanting to get into fist-fights with anyone who doesn’t agree with him you get this: The color of your skin segregates you Who you are is wrong, your identity is supposed to be Christs identity Being a woman means you are nothing more than a piece of … More Donald, The psyco
When life throws you sweet treats, take them and savor them till the very last taste. It’s been a wild few weeks of figuring out what life will look at for the next few months and I haven’t had time to write a sentence down. I’ve got a lot to say, I’ve got anger, I’ve … More Anger to Sadness to Grief
This portion of the Ywam story is a blur but the parts I do remember still fuck with my head. This time I am done with both my Discipleship Training School (DTS) and School of Evangelism (SOE), I am full time on staff. My soon to be wife and I are engaged and she is doing … More YWAM Pt. 3
When you find yourself making progress and the baby steps you have taken to get to where you are going, you realize baby steps add up quick. The very beginning of the most recent change you are in is always the hardest to work through/figure out. As you know my anxiety and depression took over … More Baby steps add up
Have you ever been so sad because another person struggles to get around? Have you ever been so depressed the only thought in your mind was to drive off a cliff? Have you ever been so excited about plants that you obsessed about them in the back of your mind the rest of the day? … More Life, What a Funny Thing
Tw: cussing, suicidal thoughts, depression • • • • • • • I’m not going to fucking lie today has been one of the hardest fucking days in my life. I came up to Tyler, TX to visit and grab the rest of my stuff and a few other things and I have been a … More Heartbreak and feels of the day
To say, “get right with God” Is nothing short of odd To say, “Gods love is unconditional” Is a very suspicional I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THE CHRISTIANS FACADE
Christians are really good at making you feel like shit. The more and more I get text messages from my old friends I feel like they are stabbing me in the back. It’s like being transgender is some joke and living out your true identity is completely false. Christianity is really good at making you … More So long, and Thanks for all the Fish
Life is good and I have a lot to be happy about. It is so damn nice being allowed to be genuinely happy. I’m happy I have great friends I’m happy I am living in Austin, Tx I’m happy I’ll get to see my kids soon I’m happy I have great jobs I’m happy I know … More 🙂
I started out in Austin, Tx with my vinyl records and clothes not knowing what it was going to look like or even feel like. As a lot of you know I came down here to transition and make friends in the queer community which has been AMAZING! The amazing couple I have been with … More Finding A Routine
Where to begin… It has been a wild week full of learning how to self-care for myself and learning my new jobs. The jobs are amazing, I have Uber down to a T and the only struggle I’m having is getting around the confusing city. It’s a lot of fun being able to listen to … More Little Something Something
My friends, it has been a wild few first days here in Austin, Tx. The night I pulled in my allergies were going bonkers and I was a sobbing mess. Most of the night I couldn’t stop thinking about how my kids were going to wake up and I wasn’t going to be there. I … More Goals are HAPPING
A little poem I wrote last year in the midst of my most intense anger. I was a very livid human last year and I am thankful this blog is an outlet. I have held a lot of these writings in for a long time so, being able to release them has been an excellent … More October 5th, 2017
